sorrrrrrrrry everyone!!! My computer doesnt let me go so xanga anymore so the only time i can update is when Imat someone else's house... I don't think too many people read these things anyway... however, i do enjoy reading everyone else's through emails that update me... but i can't leave comments, becuase it wont let me do anything xanga related. Just to let you know i still love you <3 I must depart at this time!!!! Love Love Love!!!!

P.S. I am curently listening to common addiction, but the search doesnt have Common Addiction under their listinggs, but you won't believe it! I'm in chazzy's house as they play live!!!! woot! woot!

-- eye color: brownish hazel greenish

-- hair color: brunette
-- height: 5'4 and 3/4
-- righty or lefty: Righty
-- zodiac sign: i have no idea....

-- the shoes wore today: i havent worn shoes today 
-- your weakness: guitar players, with dark curly hair.... and chocolate

-- your fears: sharks, being alone, getting hurt, bridges, heights, and mean boys
-- your perfect pizza: cheeeeeze pleasssssseeee 
-- goal you'd like to achieve: being a successful wife and woman 
-- your most overused phrase on AIM: ummmm... tootles?

-- your thoughts first waking up: NOOOOOOOOO NOT MORNING ALREADY!

-- your bedtime: bedtimes for me don't exist 
-- your most missed memory: june 9, 2002/ december 27,2003/ february 14, 2004/ june 19,2004/  and january 27,2005

-- Pepsi or coke: pepsi pepsi
-- mcdonald's or burger king: Mickey D's
-- single or group dates: single are the best, but group dates are a must!

-- adidas or nike: adidas
-- lipton ice tea or nestea: both

-- chocolate or vanilla: vanilla--->cake      chocolate---> bars hah

-- cappuccino or coffee: both both both!!! 
-- smoke: be cool, don't smoke
-- cuss: not reallt

-- sing: I LOVE to sing!

-- shower everyday: most of the time 

-- have a crush: if you consider your boyfriend a crush 

-- like(d) high school: HATE IT!
-- want to get married: yesss absolutly
-- believe in yourself: sometimes
-- get motion sickness: only in the car

-- think you're attractive: not really
-- think you're a health freak: no, but i try really hard to stay healthy

-- get along with your parent(s): most of the time

-- play an instrument: guitar and bass a little
in the past month...
-- drank alcohol: of course no...wait...my mommy lets me taste her stuff, and she had this really yummy winter drink that was nice and warm with some vanilla liquir in it...

-- smoked: ewwwwww

-- done a drug: Nope
-- had sex: Nope
-- made out: yes
-- gone on a date: yes
-- gone to the mall?: nope, ive never step foot in the mall...ever
-- eaten an entire box of oreos: ummm yes
-- been on stage: yes
-- been dumped: kinda...
-- gone skating: yes
-- made homemade cookies: yes

-- gone skinny dipping: nope
-- dyed your hair: i streaked it one time... 
-- stolen anything: only some of those bulk peanuts you can buy at the grocery store and i took a few when i was little

Have you ever...
-- played a game that required removal of clothing: once.... girls only though 
-- if so, was it mixed company:
-- been trashed or extremely intoxicated: nope
-- been caught "doing something": that would require "doing something"
-- age you hope to be married: oh, I don't know, just before 30, cuz then I'll cry
-- numbers and names of children: I don't know how many.. i mean who does? I like the names rebeccal anette and andrew thomas, and a few others that i dont know how to spell...
-- describe your dream wedding: that would take way too long

-- how do you want to die: in my sleep...with or before my husband, so I would never have to live without him...that is your cue to say "awww"

-- where you want to go to college: I really like Southeastern university in lakeland florida 
-- what do you want to be when you grow up: I like interior decorating a lot, but I wouldn't be crushed if I didn't end up doing that, im really into music and i will probably end up doing something with that, but i would be happy being a mommy. 
-- what country would you most like to visit: paris, france 
-- best eye color? charles'
-- best hair color? dark brown... or just brown

-- short or long hair: i like it when it periodically changes... long and short hair are both nice...

-- height: is this like for someone I'd be attracted to, or just something random? As long as you are taller than me, we're good..and that's not hard because I am not that tall

-- best articles of clothing: jeans
-- best first date location: romantic, but simple. thoughtful and original, but fun and safe.

-- best first kiss location: behind a restaurant in the rain after dinner
-- # of drugs taken illegally: none

-- # of people i could trust with my life: only a few

-- # of CDs that i own: a lot
-- # of piercings: 2

-- # of tattoos: 0

-- # of scars on my body: couldn't say that I've counted them
Last Person Who...
-- Slept in your bed? me

-- Saw you cry? my mom

-- Made you cry? im not at liberty to say... 

-- Spent the night at your house? jeannie

-- You shared a drink with? technically charles... but he didnt really drink any...
-- You went to the movies with? charles

-- You went to the mall with? well if you count the movies that inside the mall... then charles.
-- Yelled at you? mom
-- Sent you an email? joclyn post 

Have Your Ever...
-- Said "I love you"? Yeah
-- Been to New York? yep
-- Been to Georgia? yes
-- California? yes!
-- Hawaii? nope

-- Mexico? yep

-- China? NO

-- Canada? yes, I love Canada

-- Danced naked? yes, and if you think im dumb and you've never done it then dont sa you dont like it till you have tried it... it makes you feel good about yourself...TRY IT!
-- Dreamed something really crazy and then happened the next day? kind of, but it didnt happen exactly the same
-- Stalked someone? not really... hahaha
Pick One...
-- Apples or bananas? banananananananassss!!!!

-- Walmart or Kmart? Wal-mart forever!!!

-- Math or English? English
-- radio or CD? cd

-- drawing or painting? hmmm painting is more fun, but I wish I could draw really well
-- High school or college? I hope college

The Last Few Questions... <---thank the Lord
-- Last time you went out of the state? like last week
-- Things you like in a boy? Christian, hilarious, can carry on a decent conversation, smiles a lot, laughs a lot, is really sweet, romantic, lisps are always hot...singers are so hot, musicians are so hot...hotties are so hot...guys who like slurpees and singing/dancing/running in the rain
--Do you have a boyfriend? yes   *sigh* 
-- What do you think of ouija board? the devil! hehe
-- What book are you reading now? ummmm i don;t read...but i knit! 

-- What's on your mouse pad? a pretty picture by monet and it says "faith comes from hearing the message, and the message is heard through the word of Christ" Romans 10:17
-- Favorite board game? ummmmm... i have no idea

-- Favorite magazines? I don't really have one
-- Favorite sound? you would laugh at me if i told you...
-- Worst feeling in the world? feeling alone, heartbreak, uneasy anticipation
-- Do you like scary or exciting roller coasters? BOTH!
-- How many rings before you answer? until i can get the phone... 

-- Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? yes, herbert. the coolest penguin ever! 
-- If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be? ummmm... i dont really know... what do you think id be good at?

-- What are you going to do after you finish this survey? who knows... im bored...

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<3 always, me

Currently Playing Some People's Lives By Bette Midler see related

- give me the gift

well... many of you probably know what been going on. I honestly don't know who reads this, but once again, this is a journal so I'm going to write in it like one...

I Love Charles... its a fact known by many. I know I'm 15, but really, I don't care. No one can tell me I don't love when they don't feel what I'm feeling. It's something I can't describe. No words, no feelings. There is just no way. Even now, more than a year later, I get butterflies when I hear anything about him, I get excited when I hear him play guitar, I don't feel like a special girl to anyone but him. He's my magic pill, the one who's ben there for me though everything, think and thin. I'm not only in love with things everyone sees, I'm in love with things that have blown me away, things he doesn't even know of. I've seen how tender his heart is, how caring he is toward others, especially me. No one has given me so much in such little time. Im not only in love with him as everything he is, but I'm in love with who he is. I love his friends, I love their humor, their wilingness to be there for eachother, and wether they know it or not, they have been one of the biggest examples in my life. They are who I look for in  true friend. Someone you can look to for the best of times, someone you can look to for advice, or just to talk... even in the smallest of times, they are ALWAYS there. His family has shown me what I want to have some day. Everyone fights sometimes, but they will never leave any of them in the dust. In fact, as much crap thats going on in my family, I've realized that I do have that. No one will obandon me. Charles has taught me more as a real person than anyone else. He's not afraid to tell me how he feels, and it seems he always did the best for me. We have ben though so much, especially me, and it seems a lot of times, even if I didn't mean to, I brought him down with me and for that I am extremly sorry. I made him feel responsible for my feelings, and made him think he was my superman and he could fix all my problems. He's not my superman, but he is my hero. The person who has given me all I could ask for. I'm not too sure of anything, but I am sure no one will EVER touch my heart like he has, no one. This is how I feel.  My heart is taken for right now, all I need to do is wait. I feel like im stronger than ever. I have a wonderful family, a nice roof over my head, amazing friends who have gone above and beyond what they needed, and I feel like if things don't work out, its becuase the feelings aren't mutual. I don't expect promises, just truth and honesty. I don't just love him, I'm IN LOVE  with him.  Thats me, I'm just becky.